A Poet's Prison

There is no more balance, this tight rope has been cut
I let go of the scissors, and sent them on the run
There are lights, people screaming, no one’s having their fun
They paid 20 fucking dollars to watch me blow the gun
And I am stunned, in my heart, I have lost all of my spark
Look at me, I’m in the dark, curtain’s closing, car’s in park
I’m eating the flesh of an animal that I couldn’t control
Now my mind’s diseased and my body’s on parole

Try to turn the tide, but it’s always the same poem
I’d spit the lines, but you already know em
Try to change the game, but my drive’s on vay-cay
Try to clean my mind, but I’m busy being cray-cray
Mayday, alert all my organs
Butterflies catching my stomach, I abort them
Cleanse myself of the possibility
That I might be the only one I know who is tired of me
So I flee from the crime scene, hide my weapons
Burn my house down, get to steppin
Leave this town that I know as Jealousy
And rid my mind of this, this fallacy

Bleeding is my favorite part of the day
Shedding all my sins, and all my amity
I’m not ready to be falling in love
I just wanna fly, but not just like a dove
I wanna be prepared, and be an eagle
The air is my land, the tree’s my steeple
Look out below me, out to the people
Who wonder why they all think he/she is feeble
And I don’t have to worry, cause I’m above this
The sky’s the limit and I’m high above the summit
This elegant creature that combs through the streets and the city lights
Is my vessel as a watchkeeper to study what is right

There isn’t a hole deep enough to bury these sins
Incarcerated in my mind, I try to lock them in
Forget about the love and embers you stroke
Force choke your madness, life is a joke
That just sees you on your knees and kicks you down
When you find that stepping stone, it buries it down

So invest in this sadness, watch it grow tenfold
See away that one you just want to hold
Life didn’t give you the time to change
So throw it away, expand on this rage
So throw it away, step off of that stage
Burn the whole script, and start a new page

Heading towards the light, that’s the plan, the game changer
But it’s blinding me, it turns red, I’m sensing danger
The sensation is feeling stranger, but still I head towards the light
I look behind me as I move forward, I see nothing but night
My skins starts to bleed out shivers as cold as you
My eyes begin to pour showers that we put each other through
These memories will never fade, but cannot pass through this gate
It’s meant for one, my biggest fear, but I guess this all was fate

Thinking of us, what could’ve been, as this crimson reflects my hate
But alas, that feeling will be shed, as I move towards light beyond this gate

They tell us to forgive is to forget,
But the masses choose to riot cause the masses pay the debts
Of the over-weighted cats who say to purge our minds
But we aren’t your puppets, and we sure as hell aren’t blind
Online, on billboards, the news it says kill more
We justify madness by saying “we spilled for
Our children, your mother, our teachers, your brothers”
And all it takes is a little line and their status quo goes back to fine
What are you doing in the mainstream if we’re heading overseas?
The news can’t help us win a war if it’s covering false policies
It bothers me, we let it slide, we don’t stand up, we just abide
By saying that it’s bonafide, But I won’t let that cloud my mind!

Take out the towers, the radio signals
Deconstruct the buildings, disorganize people
We will fight again when we have a cause to bleed
But tonight let’s focus on becoming free